well, no party

well, aku udah 2 tahunan sama sang pcar. kita bikin acara hang out, makan d hanamasa, nonton, terus foto. di taman anggrek. but, for godsake, i really feel something different to my boy. he has changed or it is just what i feel? dan yg lebih menyebalkannya,gw udah make up mati2an dibantuin temen gw, pake baju favorit gw, dandan, dan ekspresi cowo gw standart seperti biasanya. apa gw gak cantik?padahal temen2 gw bilang cantik kok. :'( menyedihkan. well, dia ngasih bunga sih. tapi... i just feel flat, padahal it should be a very special day. -_____-

trus endingnya ga enak banget. gw tuh ya, ga pengen macem2, ga pengen cium2 atau apa, gw tuh cuma pengen ngobrol di tempat yg privat ga banyak orang, diskusi ttg apa yg udah kita jalanin 2 tahun ini. tapi cowo gw tuh yaaaaa, bikin geregetan banget! ga ngerti apa kalo ga selamanya gw pengen mengutarakan semuanya langsung. sekali kali nebak isi pikiran gw kenapa sih??????? cowo tuh ya ga pernah peka. kita udah usaha peka sama mereka, tapi mereka malah gini. terutama cowo gw. yaudah gw minta pulang aja. tanpa moment romantis di tengah malam. padahal biar surprise gimanaaaa gitu. sama aja. anniversary kemaren jg gagal totasl. beteeeee

free time makeover project theme : 1940s, before the world war end

It is my roommate's master piece. i found my mom's dance gown when she was 17 and let's do some make up to my face.

Hey Papa, how are you today?

Time never goes so slowly, time can leave us badly

As the sun believed that the day was so short and angry

I am standing still, on my emotional foot

runaway from your crazy years

We used to have a lot of conversations and journey

when you were young and i were a little girl

So many love we had, so many stories we shared

the rain and shiny day come and go

tears were our friends, madness stayed and laughed

Nobody knew how i feel, nobody concerned to your loneliness

I leaved and let you through your days by yourself

i never forget, but i never admit that

How big is your dream for me?even words could not say

And i do regret that time was not on my side

Papa, i used to eat chocolate and cheese with u

drink coke, and adore ice cream

we had a bad and happy birthday party

we fought and let silence came home

How many words i can say to make you know

How many time i cry to make you hear

How far i can go to find you 

Can you promise to be there if i reached America?

Can i find you in Japan?

Even i never see you in your rooo anymore

How can i see you standing in front of me and smiling?

I wish i could turn back time

I wish i had alot of things to shared with you

I wish i could hug and touch your hands

But now you are never real anymore

you flying like  dust in the wind, but it hurts when the memories still stay in my mind

Papa, i love you, more than you ever know

I never know what can i do to find yo

But i believe that you are somewhere over the sky, 

watching me here, and let me shine

Then let me ask only a question, Papa how are you today?

How can i find the answer? even i can hear you breathe anymore

Another Fashion Project

It is the new fashion project, dude...


Thanks for Ase and Phipin for these awesome project :-*

 Where is my money, kid? ;D

Sweet like sunshine :) 

U can stand under my umbrella :-*

I have a hat,,

So vintage, so nice to see :)

Happy nerdy :D

Watashi wa maris desu

Sexy glamour